WHY WHY WHY?

Why is this baby not in my arms?  I’m sooo tired… Today is her due date, it would be nice if she came today.  I’m just not good at waiting for things… and since we had such early contractions where they thought she would come real soon and now it’s drug out to her due date… it just feels like it’s never going to happen without intervention, and that’s got me a touch… depressed? frustrated? irritated? panicky? all of the above?

What’s the deal? Does my body just not know what its supposed to do?  After my water broke with Vienna they had to induce me with pitocin because labor didn’t start on it’s own.  Now it seems it’s figured out how to contract, but still doesn’t know how to go into labor… Would I have been one of those ladies to die back in the days before medicine is what it is today? Would my body ever figure it out?  I’m not trying to complain, I am thankful to the Lord that He has blessed us with the ability to have children and to have them in a day and age where we have modern medicine to take care of them and keep them (and me) alive

I’m just way too pregnant and way too hormonal to cope today… I’m ready to have my body back so I can move around the house without waddling and without feeling like i’m going to fall flat on my face It’s pretty comical to watch me actually …. I”M HUGE! and I carry all out front of myself so the baby really feels heavy!! My lower back is not happy about it!!
Just finished talking with my friend Kimma via Yahoo IM.  Kim is in Latvia.  I LOVE having IM!! :)  She talked me down out of my frustration, and once again I am doing better…. still going to post this, but at least I can end it with a … she will be here soon (aren’t good friends just WONDERFUL BLESSINGS FROM ABOVE!?!?!)

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1. Mo 07.18.08 / 3pm

   Aren’t friends wonderful, even if it’s through IM - they just make life seem normal again. Glad Kim was able to be there.