To You Oh Lord- Ziva’s Dedication

I’m really embarrassed at how much I’ve cried over the last two years.  Suddenly I tear up over just about anything that could be considered touching! I mean really, I cry at commercials, when I read scripture, when I just look at my rose garden and think oh isn’t that beautiful and tear up! It’s ridiculous! Something has happened to me now that i am a mom. Originally I blamed it on pregnancy hormones, but I didn’t get a break from it in between my girls, so, it just must be the new me!  But what I don’t understand is why more mom’s and dad’s don’t tear up dedicating their babies.  Think about it… it’s the first step in letting go of your kids, the first moment you say, Ok Lord this is out of my hands and fully in Yours.  Not that His hands aren’t the most trustworthy place in all existence for your babies to be, but still… the enormity of that statement to me is a huge deal.  I know that it may mean that some day he calls one of my girls to live over seas, far away from me, and as much as I don’t ever want to live far away from my girls, I do want them to follow Him. But since I have lived far from my family, and at present have family living over seas, I guess maybe I realize a bit more what it could mean in the future.  I try not to borrow tomorrows troubles but at moments like a Dedication it’s hard not to see what could come. 

Pastor Jerry is a family friend and he did Ziva’s dedication blessing, which was sooo nice, and we are so glad he was able to do it.  He’s also good at helping by cracking jokes!  He did however resist joking about Ziva’s dress :)  and what I like to refer to as her “Flying Nun Sleeves!” 

I found this dress in Good Will. It is sooo beautiful.  Someone went through a lot of work to make it and I just thought it was sooo very sweet.  (It doesn’t show up so very well in this photo, mabye I’ll have to take a photo of it on the hanger to show).  Then I found the white booties at Carter’s (the ones that were made with the dress were waaaayy too big for Ziva).  I did not try the dress on Ziva until the night before her dedication (as I was too busy adding bling/beads to it so that she could sparkle! I mean really, when you are being presented to a King you need to be beautiful and have some bling!!!) Anyway… I didn’t realize how HUGE the sleeves were going to look against her head ha ha ha… but I still loved the dress on her :)  Though it was a bit warm in church (usually the a/c keeps us all feeling mostly cold, not this last few weeks though!) so we had to take the dress off her rather early!

To add to my tearfulness I must confess that we had a rough morning.  Not only have I been a bit sleep deprived, but several things that were supposed to happen kinda fell apart… we were late which added to it all and … well, I’m not handling stress so very well… but hey, nothing  that huge or important (it just felt like it at the time!)  So just prior to service starting I had a bit of a major meltdown (hence no makeup left!)
 
Times like these it also hits me however, how blessed I truly am!  I waited many long years to find my Sam, and he is more wonderful than I could have possibly imagined!  And that we have such a fabulous live, and two beautiful daughters, well, that makes me cry too!!  So you see, I can’t win for loosing as far as the crying goes, but I figure hey… sometimes crying is a good thing!!

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